HONORABLE MENTION

I recently suffered a misfortune at the hands of one believed to be a friend. Right now, honestly, I don't give a fuck about friendship. You don't have to be a friend of mine. Fuck with me or don't. Where my issue lies, is in the fact that people no longer have honor. I would be a liar if I said that I never did anything fucked up to anyone. But what I will say, is that I have always had a conscience that governed my actions. Especially as they related to other people. Many an unfortunate mutha fucka have been inadvertently swept up by the abrasive sand storm that can often times be Lee Roy Anderson. And to you all right now, I say "I am sorry. I beg of you (who haven't done so already), please forgive my lack of foresight in whichever unfortunate series of events you partook."

Dramatic pause (you know, to let it sink in.)


but I have never intentionally masqueraded as anyone's friend specifically for a self-supposed and self-imposed payout. I was raised to believe that you treat people a certain way and strive to live your life in a certain fashion (shouts to ma dukes). I made the mistake of believing that everyone was raised that way. People may claim to be a friend, but in actuality, they don't have the personal integrity that is the foundation which would enable them to be a good friend. Or sometimes, even a good person. To assume that people were raised, to respect and cherish one another and life; To value the very things that make all of us unique and thereby make being a member of the humans club so great, was a grave mistake that I have paid dearly for. People used to live by a code. A general set of principles that they used when making decisions. People had these values instilled in them so deeply that they were honestly ready to die for the things that they believed in. How many of us could name some things, other than maybe our families, that we would die for? And I know a whole lot of folks who wouldn't be ready to lay their life on the line for their folks, but in a few cases, I don't even blame 'em! Maybe that right there is the problem. A lot of us have never seen a working example of a truly honorable person. Considering that we are all products of our respective environments, how can we be an honorable generation of people when everybody around you is trifflin? from politicians to preachers, parents to peers, everybody is fucked up! When no one has demonstrated what it means to live with honor, that innate sense of right and wrong that we all have, becomes callused. And we revert to the primal animalistic survival of the fittest mode. Intellect and common sense are the only 2 things that really differentiate us from other mammals. Therefore, I would like to think that we could execute this whole survival of the fittest thing in a much more civilized manner. Instead of clawing at ones back and gnawing at each others jugular. Simply put, follow the golden rule. do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Not as they have done to you, or how you think they 'bout to do you! But as you would have them do unto you. Unless you are a sadomasochistic freak that is. But assuming that you are normal and don't have it out for yourself, follow the golden rule, dammit (janet). Lol... Inside joke... But anyway, maybe if we start a trend of paying it forward, at least by our great great great great great great grandkids lifetime, living with principles and honor will be commonplace. Or maybe I'm just being a sensitive ass dude right now. But I still wanna know, Whatever happened to the days when people knew honor and were in turn honorable? And more importantly, can we return to them? Y'all holla back and let me know if I'm trippin...again. One.